On December 18 2010 we were married. It was an amazing day. We loved each other very much. That was the day that we started our family. We were living life as two married people do. Loving each other and doing our best to become better people. I remember talking to your mom and we were talking about when we wanted to start having little babies. We decided that we wanted to wait a little bit. We needed time to prepare for you and your brothers and sisters. We knew that the Lord had a plan for us. We knew that when the Lord was ready for us to have y'all he would let us know. And for us that was the way that we wanted it.
Months went by and married life was amazing. Your mommy and daddy grew more in love as each day passed. Then one day mommy was feeling sick. And after a couple of days of being sick we learned that we were going to have you. We took a little test. And BAM!!! You were coming. Mommy and daddy were so happy. We knew that the Lord had blessed us. We were both scared. But we were so excited that you were coming. We told our family and friends that you were coming to our family and they were all so happy. We were all happy. Mommy and daddy thought of names for you. We thought of how were going to raise you. How we would help you grow to become an amazing person. But most importantly we knew that we were going to love you more then any other baby would be loved.
Mommy started to feel sick one day. We thought that it would be something that would pass. But it wasn't. We took mommy to the hospital. At the hospital we found out that the Lord needed you to come home. We learned that now wasn't the time for you to come to us. The Lord needed you to help others come first. He needed you there cause you were to perfect to come here right now. Mommy and daddy were so sad. We cried a lot. We cried cause we knew that you were needed with our Heavenly father before you were needed down here. But don't worry we're not sad cause we will never see you again. We know that there will be a time when we will be ready for you. When Heavenly father will not need you anymore to help him. So we'll make a promise to you. Stay there and do what the Lord needs you to do. Help him with whatever he needs. And mommy and daddy will do that same down here. We will do our best to prepare for you. We will do our best to make others lives better. Because we know that one day the Lord will bless us once again. We know that he has a plan for us. And that this is something that we need to go through before we can bring here. Until then remember that we love you. We'll be waiting for you.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Guess what??
So much is happening in our lives right now. But the biggest thing is that WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!!
Now if you know me then you would know that i love my nieces and nephews soooo much. I have loved watching each of them grow up. And since I got married they have only doubled. And so has my love for them. Each one of them holds a piece of my heart in a very special way. From the oldes to the youngest they all know that their uncle Jason loves each one of them. And for years now i have done everything in my power to show them that. I have always tried to be someone that they could come to for anything. I guess in a way i have been in training for the one thing that i know i was put on this earth to do. I know that with all of my heart that the one thing that i know that i was born to be is a father. All of my life i have held a special place in my heart for this moment. And now that it is here i can't help but to smile. This is something that Malinda and I have been waiting for. We didn't plan on this at all. But we know that the lord had a HUGE hand in this. He has blessed us with the opportunity to be parents. Are we scared? Yes of course. But its ok. Are we ready? No. But its ok. Its ok because we know that the lord knows that we're ready. ITs ok because we have family who supports us. And thats what we need the most right now. We need to know that we have family there to simply love our first child. Thats all. We'll figure out the rest. We will learn how to be parents. A baby is a blessing. Its a huge blessing for us. I know that when i married Malinda I knew that I was going to be marrying the mother of my children. She is smart, cautious, loving, and most of all ready to be a mother. What we need right now is just love and support.We know that we have friends who love us as well and are excited for us. I cant think of better friends to have the ones i have now. Thats why i have you there. We cant wait till we can show pictures of baby. We cant wait to be parents. And most of all we cant wait for our child to meet our wonderful family and friends
For my LDS family and friends. We know that there is a step that we need to take. We know that we need to be sealed as a family. But we would like to wait. It is a choice that we have made. It was a choice that does not involve our family or friends.
Now if you know me then you would know that i love my nieces and nephews soooo much. I have loved watching each of them grow up. And since I got married they have only doubled. And so has my love for them. Each one of them holds a piece of my heart in a very special way. From the oldes to the youngest they all know that their uncle Jason loves each one of them. And for years now i have done everything in my power to show them that. I have always tried to be someone that they could come to for anything. I guess in a way i have been in training for the one thing that i know i was put on this earth to do. I know that with all of my heart that the one thing that i know that i was born to be is a father. All of my life i have held a special place in my heart for this moment. And now that it is here i can't help but to smile. This is something that Malinda and I have been waiting for. We didn't plan on this at all. But we know that the lord had a HUGE hand in this. He has blessed us with the opportunity to be parents. Are we scared? Yes of course. But its ok. Are we ready? No. But its ok. Its ok because we know that the lord knows that we're ready. ITs ok because we have family who supports us. And thats what we need the most right now. We need to know that we have family there to simply love our first child. Thats all. We'll figure out the rest. We will learn how to be parents. A baby is a blessing. Its a huge blessing for us. I know that when i married Malinda I knew that I was going to be marrying the mother of my children. She is smart, cautious, loving, and most of all ready to be a mother. What we need right now is just love and support.We know that we have friends who love us as well and are excited for us. I cant think of better friends to have the ones i have now. Thats why i have you there. We cant wait till we can show pictures of baby. We cant wait to be parents. And most of all we cant wait for our child to meet our wonderful family and friends
For my LDS family and friends. We know that there is a step that we need to take. We know that we need to be sealed as a family. But we would like to wait. It is a choice that we have made. It was a choice that does not involve our family or friends.
Monday, January 31, 2011
World I couldn't leave you.
So i have realized that I'm not done writing to the world. I don't know if its one of those things where i think i need to let my thoughts out or i just miss y'all. I think its a little of both. I have so much that i want to tell y'all. I feel like i have lost one of my dearest friends. So here i go. I'll start from the beginning.
So as of December 18, 2010 i became a married man. And to tell you the truth that was the best day of my life. Since then i feel like things have been amazing. I never knew that getting married to your best friend would have such an impact on your life. Just the other day i was talking to a dear friend of mine and i told her that i don't know why we took so long to get married. I mean really not much has changed since being married. Other then the obvious. We live together, we're together day and night, and there are perks. But other then that we are the same. Also i think that our relationship has grown into something that is so honest and loving. We of course have a disagreements like any other couple. But we work through them. We take the advice that we were given to heart. And I think that the most important one that we have taken is that we should never go to sleep mad at each other. Well maybe two. My sister--in-laws mother-in-law gave us good advice as well. "When one person ask to go with them somewhere go, it doesn't matter where just go. Cause if you don't there will be a day when they will stop asking". And i think that after 56 years marriage she might know a little about it. But those two things we have really taken to heart.
During out first month of marriage i have learned a lot about myself. About the way i act when my wife is around ( thats so awesome i have a wife) versus when she is not around. I learned it the hard way last Saturday. One of our dear family friends got married. There were going to be a lot of people that i haven't seen in months. And i know that they were going to ask where Malinda was. Malinda attended her sisters baby shower in Dallas and wasn't able to attend the wedding. I felt so lonely without her there. And as i walked around i the reception area i found myself lost and confused. I felt like i was old and had lost my way. I later realized that it was Malinda who was the person who told me where to go and where to sit. I missed her dearly.
A lot has happened in my life this past year. Along with getting married last year i grew more to who i am now on a spiritual level as well. Now I'm not the most religious person in the world. But i do know a couple of things. I love my religion. I know that what i was taught growing up are lessons that i will never forget. They are in my heart now and one day i will teach my children the same principles that i was taught. Coming to that conclusion was hard. It was the hardest thing that i think i ever had to do. I thought that asking the girl of my dream to marry me was going to be hard. But i found out that it was probably the easiest thing I'll ever do. I tested my spiritually. I tested my beliefs. I tested my faith in people. I tried so hard to find reasons to leave my church. I tried everything that i could think of but it never happened. It didn't happened cause there was a friend on the east coast who wouldn't let that happen. As i did what i could to leave the church every week I received an email from a friends mom about her mission. It was the only contact i had with the church. And from hundreds of miles a way it was my friend who saved me. It was like every week she had something to tell me. Every week she had a lesson for me to learn. Or a memory that i had of a moment that she was having. It was like there was nothing that i could do or say to stop my friend from talking to me. I saw her this past weekend and it took everything i had not to cry when i saw her. It was one of those moments when you meet your role model in person and you don't know what to say. I didn't have Malinda there with me so it made it harder. I didn't have her to tell me that I'm going to be ok. I hugged my friend and it was like i knew that from that day forward my faith will never waiver. Michelle Ferry thank you. Our lives will forever be changed because of what you taught me.
In life you will face many things that will force you to change your plans. There will be times when plans have to change. And that's ok. Its ok to change what you want for your life. Its ok to chase a dream that you think is impossible. Nothing in life is set in stone until it happens. I had a great year, I have had to face things that i didn't want to face. But one thing that i learned that i was never alone through it all. I had my wife, my family and my friends to carry me through it all. I love my life. I love my friends. I love family. I love not knowing where tomorrow is going to take us. Cause in the end I'm not alone. I have you.
So as of December 18, 2010 i became a married man. And to tell you the truth that was the best day of my life. Since then i feel like things have been amazing. I never knew that getting married to your best friend would have such an impact on your life. Just the other day i was talking to a dear friend of mine and i told her that i don't know why we took so long to get married. I mean really not much has changed since being married. Other then the obvious. We live together, we're together day and night, and there are perks. But other then that we are the same. Also i think that our relationship has grown into something that is so honest and loving. We of course have a disagreements like any other couple. But we work through them. We take the advice that we were given to heart. And I think that the most important one that we have taken is that we should never go to sleep mad at each other. Well maybe two. My sister--in-laws mother-in-law gave us good advice as well. "When one person ask to go with them somewhere go, it doesn't matter where just go. Cause if you don't there will be a day when they will stop asking". And i think that after 56 years marriage she might know a little about it. But those two things we have really taken to heart.
During out first month of marriage i have learned a lot about myself. About the way i act when my wife is around ( thats so awesome i have a wife) versus when she is not around. I learned it the hard way last Saturday. One of our dear family friends got married. There were going to be a lot of people that i haven't seen in months. And i know that they were going to ask where Malinda was. Malinda attended her sisters baby shower in Dallas and wasn't able to attend the wedding. I felt so lonely without her there. And as i walked around i the reception area i found myself lost and confused. I felt like i was old and had lost my way. I later realized that it was Malinda who was the person who told me where to go and where to sit. I missed her dearly.
A lot has happened in my life this past year. Along with getting married last year i grew more to who i am now on a spiritual level as well. Now I'm not the most religious person in the world. But i do know a couple of things. I love my religion. I know that what i was taught growing up are lessons that i will never forget. They are in my heart now and one day i will teach my children the same principles that i was taught. Coming to that conclusion was hard. It was the hardest thing that i think i ever had to do. I thought that asking the girl of my dream to marry me was going to be hard. But i found out that it was probably the easiest thing I'll ever do. I tested my spiritually. I tested my beliefs. I tested my faith in people. I tried so hard to find reasons to leave my church. I tried everything that i could think of but it never happened. It didn't happened cause there was a friend on the east coast who wouldn't let that happen. As i did what i could to leave the church every week I received an email from a friends mom about her mission. It was the only contact i had with the church. And from hundreds of miles a way it was my friend who saved me. It was like every week she had something to tell me. Every week she had a lesson for me to learn. Or a memory that i had of a moment that she was having. It was like there was nothing that i could do or say to stop my friend from talking to me. I saw her this past weekend and it took everything i had not to cry when i saw her. It was one of those moments when you meet your role model in person and you don't know what to say. I didn't have Malinda there with me so it made it harder. I didn't have her to tell me that I'm going to be ok. I hugged my friend and it was like i knew that from that day forward my faith will never waiver. Michelle Ferry thank you. Our lives will forever be changed because of what you taught me.
In life you will face many things that will force you to change your plans. There will be times when plans have to change. And that's ok. Its ok to change what you want for your life. Its ok to chase a dream that you think is impossible. Nothing in life is set in stone until it happens. I had a great year, I have had to face things that i didn't want to face. But one thing that i learned that i was never alone through it all. I had my wife, my family and my friends to carry me through it all. I love my life. I love my friends. I love family. I love not knowing where tomorrow is going to take us. Cause in the end I'm not alone. I have you.
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