World I couldn't leave you.

So i have realized that I'm not done writing to the world. I don't know if its one of those things where i think i need to let my thoughts out or i just miss y'all. I think its a little of both. I have so much that i want to tell y'all. I feel like i have lost one of my dearest friends. So here i go. I'll start from the beginning.
So as of December 18, 2010 i became a married man. And to tell you the truth that was the best day of my life. Since then i feel like things have been amazing. I never knew that getting married to your best friend would have such an impact on your life. Just the other day i was talking to a dear friend of mine and i told her that i don't know why we took so long to get married. I mean really not much has changed since being married. Other then the obvious. We live together, we're together day and night, and there are perks. But other then that we are the same. Also i think that our relationship has grown into something that is so honest and loving. We of course have a disagreements like any other couple. But we work through them. We take the advice that we were given to heart. And I think that the most important one that we have taken is that we should never go to sleep mad at each other. Well maybe two. My sister--in-laws mother-in-law gave us good advice as well. "When one person ask to go with them somewhere go, it doesn't matter where just go. Cause if you don't there will be a day when they will stop asking". And i think that after 56 years marriage she might know a little about it. But those two things we have really taken to heart.
During out first month of marriage i have learned a lot about myself. About the way i act when my wife is around ( thats so awesome i have a wife) versus when she is not around. I learned it the hard way last Saturday. One of our dear family friends got married. There were going to be a lot of people that i haven't seen in months. And i know that they were going to ask where Malinda was. Malinda attended her sisters baby shower in Dallas and wasn't able to attend the wedding. I felt so lonely without her there. And as i walked around i the reception area i found myself lost and confused. I felt like i was old and had lost my way. I later realized that it was Malinda who was the person who told me where to go and where to sit. I missed her dearly.
A lot has happened in my life this past year. Along with getting married last year i grew more to who i am now on a spiritual level as well. Now I'm not the most religious person in the world. But i do know a couple of things. I love my religion. I know that what i was taught growing up are lessons that i will never forget. They are in my heart now and one day i will teach my children the same principles that i was taught. Coming to that conclusion was hard. It was the hardest thing that i think i ever had to do. I thought that asking the girl of my dream to marry me was going to be hard. But i found out that it was probably the easiest thing I'll ever do. I tested my spiritually. I tested my beliefs. I tested my faith in people. I tried so hard to find reasons to leave my church. I tried everything that i could think of but it never happened. It didn't happened cause there was a friend on the east coast who wouldn't let that happen. As i did what i could to leave the church every week I received an email from a friends mom about her mission. It was the only contact i had with the church. And from hundreds of miles a way it was my friend who saved me. It was like every week she had something to tell me. Every week she had a lesson for me to learn. Or a memory that i had of a moment that she was having. It was like there was nothing that i could do or say to stop my friend from talking to me. I saw her this past weekend and it took everything i had not to cry when i saw her. It was one of those moments when you meet your role model in person and you don't know what to say. I didn't have Malinda there with me so it made it harder. I didn't have her to tell me that I'm going to be ok. I hugged my friend and it was like i knew that from that day forward my faith will never waiver. Michelle Ferry thank you. Our lives will forever be changed because of what you taught me.
In life you will face many things that will force you to change your plans. There will be times when plans have to change. And that's ok. Its ok to change what you want for your life. Its ok to chase a dream that you think is impossible. Nothing in life is set in stone until it happens. I had a great year, I have had to face things that i didn't want to face. But one thing that i learned that i was never alone through it all. I had my wife, my family and my friends to carry me through it all.  I love my life. I love my friends. I love family. I love not knowing where tomorrow is going to take us. Cause in the end I'm not alone. I have you.