yes yes thats the way that i was in love

love is such a weird and crazy thing. it will make you do things that you thought you would never do. especially when it is a crazy kind of love. yes crazy. i mean seriously come on when you have a crazy girl screaming in your ear about who knows what. and all you can say is. have you ever noticed how beautiful you are when your mad. wow its like seeing perfection in person. that's a crazy kinda love. i remember so many things that happened where i was like wow that just really happened. like when you would see that girl for the first time. and you noticed that she looks completely out of place and all you can say is hello family, welcome. and then you see her again and she is wearing the most ridicules pair of pajamas and you think to yourself dang that is really hot. that's a crazy kind of love. or when you sit there and your face is touching and she tells you that you want to kiss her. and all you can think of is hey i think ill just kick her off the bed. just so she doesn't know how badly i want to kiss her. i cant giver her everything today. and then you sing her a song that just brings the whole weekend into a dream that you want to live in for the rest of your life. that's a crazy kind of love. and when she tells you that she loves you on accident and then later on that night you tell her that she is the love of your life. and that was not accident. that's a crazy kind of love. so to all those looking for a crazy kind of love. remember that its awesome when your screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain. and when its 2 am and cursing their name. and that just makes you go insane. man that is the best kind of love. the crazy love. its awesome. now go and find it.......

ughhhhh

so i noticed that some times friends are hard to come by. this has happened recently in my life. i have had friends come and go and then i have some that have stayed and some times i don't even know why they are still there. but I'm glad that they are. and that sometimes its hard to have a friend that is just a friend and nothing more. that its a crime or something to have someone as your best friend and that its hard for people to understand this. that its ok that i can just be friends with this person and that there is nothing else there but an amazing friendship. and i love that more then anything. its so amazing to have a certain kinda friendship with someone where only you two are the only ones that understand whats going and that's ok. cause you know that you don't owe anything to anyone else. i have a couple of girls that i would consider my best friends and i love it. i love the close friendships that i have with some people. and some more then others. but for the most part I'm so grateful for the friendships that i have. i tend to forget that i need to be grateful for that. i sometimes i forget that. but im glad that i have an amazing friend who keeps reminding me that i have that. she tends to know more then i do. it sucks that that happens a lot. but that's what she here for. to know more then i do. and thats ok with me. thats why she is my best friend

history in the making

as i sat here and watch the numbers climb and i watched the polls rise and realizing that this might just happen. i looked back on the past couple of years and how i watched this man stand for what he stands for. how it took what most people said could not happen and he made it a reality. i sat here and watched for the first time a African American candidate stand before millions people and say that he will be the next president of the united states. and how proud i am to know that. i remembered the first time that i walked into the Obama headquarters in Austin Texas and just said how can help. how can i make a difference. i did what i did. i did what i could do to help. i remembered the time when i took my little sister and watch for the first time the look in her eyes that she knew what she believed in and what she wanted. that at that moment in her life she can stand there and say that she was there to hear the first African American president speak to her and the rest of the people that were there to witness history in the making. i remember my mother who doesn't have much faith in this country say proudly that she voted for the first time in years for a man that she believed in. i sat here and realized that as i watched this speech i was watching history and how i can i was there when. i watched as the first African American president elect speak of that women in Georgia. how he spoke of his family and friends. how he spoke that this was not a victory not just for him but for every American who chased that American dream. who still believes that we are a county based on dreams and chasing our dreams. the what our forefathers fought for is still alive today in this country. how what every American has fought for and fighting for is still alive in this country.
the time is here. change is about to happen. this is not a red country, a blue country, a white country, a black country and Hispanic country. this is my America, your America, our America.we are the United States of America. we are the ones that we have been waiting for. we are the ones that can change this country. yes we can. yes we can do it together. as Americans. lets make a change for the better. lets support a man that has worked hard to come from nothing to something.
even if you dont support borak obama. now is the time to let your voice be heard.now is the time that you need to stand for what you beleive in. we have been promised by our next president that he will be honest with us. i know that that is hard to take in but if you dont let your voice be heard then we will be back where we started. so please let your voice be heard this time around. have faith that our county can change for the better. we can do it together as americans. may god bless this great country and our new president borak obama.

how do you deal

have you ever come to the realization that somethings are ever and that they can never be what you want them to be? well I'm going through that right now. and I'm trying not to go crazy over it. the one thing that i know is that ill be ok. that when one door closes another one opens and you get to see a whole new different side of life. you tend to start looking at things differently and you notice opportunities that you didn't think were there and then you act upon them. you know when ever I'm knocked down like this i usually just lie there and i don't try to make things better for myself. but this time its different. i have friends that support me in what I'm doing and they believe in what I'm doing and who i am. Ive noticed that lately i have so many great friends. and one that is above them all. i don't know what life has in store for me or what will happen to me when it is all said and done. i think that's something most people try to figure out.but one thing that we forget is that we don't always control what happens in our lives. some times we are spectators in are own world. and sometimes we just have to put our hands up and say "alright fine i have no idea what is going on but if you think that this is what i need then so be it. ill do what ever you want me to do. it sucks sometimes when you reach that point in life but you have to go through it. you have to let go and see what else is out there for you. even if it hurts and you don't think that its going to work.

I'm going through something like that right now. i don't know where this is going to go but I'm willing to try something new. i have faith that I'm in good hands and I'll get through this. i have a friend who will tell me that I'm being stupid and that i should stop what I'm doing. so life will be good from here on. I'm so excited for what I'm about to go through. its going to be an awesome ride.