a new world

so lately i have had a new look on life. i have been through so much and have done so much that it is really hard to stay focus on what i want to achieve in life. i have seen things that i cannot explain nor do i want to. but over and over again i tend to notice that when you have true friends that want to see you happy they always come through for you when you need it the most. its funny when you put people through so many adversities and you watch them come out of it a new person. i have seen this with my own life. with me, family and friends. to watch someone at their lowest point and then they realize that what they went through was for the best. i think that is what life is about sometimes. to see how many times we get back up. even when we are knocked down for the hundredth time. get back up. put your fist up and go another 5 rounds.

so now as i think about what i want to do with my life i think back to all the hardships that i had to go through to get to the point that I'm at right now. and how sweet its going to be when i find what it is I'm looking for. first i think that i need to decide what it is I'm looking for. that has to be one of the hardest parts of my life right now. i try and try to figure out what i want in my life. i think that i will soon find that out. but till then i think i will just enjoy what i have. what i have now is still pretty sweet. but i know that it can get better. and when it does i know i will find what true happiness is. i cant wait. so to the world i say to you get knocked out. fall fall fall. and when you feel like you will never get back up. get up and get ready cause you have 5 more rounds in you. good luck!!

inner thoughts

Ive had my mind on a lot lately. its kinda crazy. and i don't really know what to do about it all. so of course i go to the place where i know i can go to vent and maybe find a piece of what I'm looking for in life. the long lost piece that will complete this part of my life. i guess i have had the thought of what to do next. what will be the next big step that i know i should take now that I'm getting up there in age. but its also the hardest step to take. i tried once and that didn't really come out the way that i wanted. so here i am thinking about what to do next and if i should talk to this person about what I'm feeling and the thought process that I'm going through. even though i hope she knows what I'm thinking. well i hope she does. i think Ive been clear with her about what I'm thinking, you know the flirting and of course the hey i think that your pretty sweet. haha oh man. i know that this is going to get me in trouble but oh well, life is hard sometimes. and we have to do things in life that we don't really want to do. life is tough just suck it up. i just need to take it kinda slowly. hurry up and make me move tell her that she's pretty and be a perfect gentleman. and then fall around in a fairy tale. cause you never know what someone is going to mean to you in the long run. and life can be so sweet when you do what you feel is right.

haha thanks for listening to me tell myself to do something about it. well if you have any advice I'm all ears. if not well..... i guess save me a seat. cause its a table for two tonight. haha

A chef's perspective

So in life sometimes you feel like your born to do things. kinda like heating and air condition. and sometimes in life you think you are born to do certain things. there is a big difference in those two thoughts. one is right. and the other one well. just go back to school and think about this again. 

i have recently talked with different people about what they want to do when they "grow up" and i have realized that most people have no idea what they are doing in life. some tell me that they do what they do cause it pays well. or they have the answer "well my dad does it so why not" haha yeah and if your dad jumped off a bridge would you do that to. geeze!! those are the people that find themselves always searching for that next project. in a way the next big score. 

then you run into the ones that well.... know what they are meant to do in life. they are the ones that you can ask questions to and they can answer honestly. the ones that have the passion to do what ever they know they can do. what ever that may be. those are the ones that i want next to me. those are the ones that know what they want in life. they are the ones that love what they do and do what they love. even if some people talk down to them and make them feel like they are stupid :) its funny when you meet some people and have no idea what kind of impact they have on you. even when they have no idea that they are doing this to you. i take my hat off to them and say well done my friend. I'm very impressed. they are the ones that will make an impact on the art that they do. even if it is as simple as a plate of food. cause that is what we do. we make things that will bring a smile to your face. we do this for the reaction of "wow that looks so good". that is what we do. that is who we are. we live for those moments. and for some they may never understand that you cant learn how to make those moments at some school that you pay way to much for. it is  something that well.... is god given. your either born with it or without it. i my friend am born with it. are you????