My dear friend Don Walser

So I know when ever I post on here I always tend to put something that some would say is depressing or some where along those lines. But today I want to pay tribute to someone that I hold near and dear to my heart. A fallen friend. Its been over three years since I have heard the great Don Walser sing. I know some of you who know him or of him are thinking but Jason he didn’t perform for a good while before he died. But to the few that were there that day to hear that great man sing one more time with his friend Slaid know this day very well.

So to tell you a bit about my friend Don. He was a large man. In so many different ways. When you spoke to him he would look at you like you have been a friend for years. There were many times when I would just sit and talk with him for hours and hours. He would tell me story after story. I just loved to ask him questions. It was hard sometimes because in his last couple of months it was harder for him to answer them. But I still sat there and talked with him. We would talk about so many things. Most of the time it was me asking him about what he loved about being a singer. What it was like and so forth. I enjoyed every moment that I had with my friend.. I still to this day think back to the times that I had with my friend.

I have always remembered the first time that I heard Don sing live. I was at a youth conference in Kyle Texas. And for the dance that they were having Dan was going to sing for them. I was so excited. I have always heard that if you were in Austin Texas and you wanted to see a really good country show Dons was the one to see. And here I was about to watch him for free. I sat there and I listen to that man belt out his great music. Music that the rest of mainstream America has forgotten. Songs like “ Rolling Stone from Texas”, "Big Balls in Cowtown”. it was such an honor to be there listening to this man sing these songs. It was awesome to be there.. Now the only way that I can hear my friend is on my ipod. I wish that I can go back to the time when he was singing with his friend.

One of my last memories that I have of Don is one that I will never forget. I was with some of my friends and I was going to go and sing some hymns him. Now I'm no singer. I suck so for me to go and sing for a man like that scared the freak out of me. So I brought some of my friends with me. We sat there and sung for him.We sang "O my Father". While we were singing we could hear a faint voice singing along. We were singing with the great Don Walser. I sat with him and we would read scriptures for a couple of hours a night. I loved those nights. I have heard before that you come to learn who a man is when he is dying. Well my friends Don wanted to hear the words of the gospel. I learned so much about my friend from those nights. But I learned more about how much the gospel really means to me.

Oh how time goes by when your living your life. How you sometimes forget friends that have crossed your way. But one thing is for sure I haven't forgotten who Don was. Its been three years since his passing and i can still remember that day like it was yesterday. My mom told me that Don had passed away. I just sat there and said a little prayer. At his funeral i tried really hard not to show how much i missed my friend. But as i sat there with his family i couldn't help but to let some tears run down my face. It was hard saying bye to a dear friend.

About a year ago i went to one of slaid cleaves shows in Austin. I sat there and listened to him sing the songs that we all love. And then without any noticed he started talking about our dear friend. The words that was said were ones that i will never forget. He sang a song that he wrote about don. And like so many in the crowd we sat there with tears in our eyes as one man told his story the only way that it can be said. I know that Don was in cowboy heaven smiling down on us when that song was playing. When he was done singing i looked over at a man standing next to me. I asked if he knew Don. He said no. But he loved his music. I then knew that Don wasn't just an average singer. He was more then that. He was someone that we all knew as a friend. So for all my other friends who know of this great man. Know this. His music still goes on. We still love it. I know i do. Thanks Don for everything. You my friend are truly missed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHJQt-nqCAo ok so i couldn't figure out how to get video up. But this is the link to watch Slaid sing his tribute to Don. Enjoy

out with the old in with the new???? i think

ok so here we go again.... i think? so things are going pretty well. i just had an amazing week. things i dont think could have gone better. but thats for another post that one day i hope that i can share with the world. or at least the 2 people that actually read my blog. ( me and my mom) so i have been put into what i would consider one of the biggest pickles that i think i have ever been in. and i dont know what to do. as i go through life i know what i will say bye to some of my dearest friends. and some of them i know that i can do without. but then there are some that i cant honestly do with out at this point in my life. and its ok. well mainly i know there is a role that they can play later on in my life. i just hope that i can keep that contact in my life. and not let them ride off into the sunset without knowing what they meant to me. but then there are the ones that i need in my life. the ones that i know will play that important role. the most important one i guess. not really the one that you might think when reading this. i think that i can learn more from a mistake then from something/someone that makes me happy. i know that i still have so much to learn about life. and i know that in life you have to make mistakes. you have to make that bad decision. how are we going to learn if we are always doing the right thing. maybe its something that i got wrong. but i have had a lot of different types of people throughout my life time. and there are some that i wish i never would have known. then there are the ones that i knew i shouldnt have in my life but i still kept them there. and then there are the ones that everyone tells me that i shouldnt be friends with. the ones that i know serve a certain purpose in my life. and i only i know why they are there. and i for one am glad that they are there. its funny how you can care so much for someone no matter what they put you through. you can still look them in the eye and be grateful for what they have done for you. for being that person that made you happy when you were having a bad day. to be there for you when you just had the best day ever and they were the only person that you wanted to tell. and then they did something that you never thought you would ever be able or capable of doing. they show you how to care for someone like you have never done before. they show you a different part of your heart that you never thought was there. and it hurts when you come to the terms that it will never happen. that what could have been is something that you will never know. it makes you think of how you look at life. its made me really think if im doing the right things sometimes. if i have made the right choice in doing what i do best. they always seemed to bring out the best in you. and all you want is to feel what you had that one time. but now we are where we are with everything. life has brought us here and things are different between us. its something that i have come to realize.

so now i sit here and think about where my life is going. where i need to be now. what kind of opportunities i cant let pass. i know that what is a head of me is something great. i feel that i have a mark that i need to make in the world some how. and when i figure that out i know i will be happy. but until then i will keep doing what i do. the nice guy in me will still be there. and i will do everything in my power to make the people in my life that much happier. for it is the people that are in my life that i want to make happy. i just hope that i dont take to long making that happen for some of them.

short and sweet.

Okso this is going to be really short. well i hope. so from what i can tell in life. with the experiences that i have had. i have realized that there is probably like about 30% of girls that are actually really cool and sweet. the other 70% have no idea what they want in life. they pass up great opportunities and people for something that is not even worth it. i some times wonder if its even worth the time for me to keep friendships and relationships. i cant take it anymore. I'm so frustrated. why cant the awesome, adorable, amazing guy ever get the girl. maybe your just not worth my time anymore. I'm done with you. besides i love food more then i like you. take that!!!



P.S. the views that are expressed in this blog do not involve the great girl friends that i have. for they are freaking amazing. they know who they are. if you have to ask then this is for you. :)

He-Man Woman Hater.

Ok im getting sick of this. Im getting sick of getting screwed over by so many people. and mainly girls. YES GIRLS!!!!! so far in my life i have been given the opportunity to have so many girls that i can call some of my best friends. but as of lately there have been few that i can put in that category. well more like one that is pretty much the best friend a guy can ask for. even thought some psycho girl thinks im a creeper. ( come on you dont even know me ughh) but what ever thats another story. so here is what i have come up with the experiences that i have encountered in the past couple of months. and ladies if im wrong please correct me. because so far the girls that i am getting my examples from arent helping your cause.

ok so one of the things that i have noticed is that no matter how nice a guy can be. like he can be the nicest guy that you have ever met. he will never be what you want to date. he's like a lamp. just there when you need him. you turn the lamp on just when you need the light that it gives. so therefore that guy is a lamp. you dont want to date him. you just in a way want to use him for one purpose. to make things easier for you. so he's a lamp. another is that you wont date the guy because your to heart broken to date. that you feel that you have no one in this world to make you happy. and when the perfect guy comes in the picture and he tells you that you are the most beautiful girl in the world and that he would give up everything that he owns just to have a chance at making you happy. just one chance to prove to you that true love exist. to show you that no matter what life throws at you he will be there to protect you from all the things that are wrong.

ok so what does a guy have to do to be happy. when did doing everything right and showing different people that you are willing to be what ever it is not good enough for them. when did being that " perfect guy" not what girls want. or is it that now a days girls like guys to treat them like crap. that girls always want a bad ass. or something like that. its a bunch of crap that no matter what the "good guy" does he will always be out shined but that stupid guy who doesnt care about you. who wont do what ever it takes to make you happy. even if its to leave a state just so that he can bring a smile to your face. just to see that beautiful smile on your face just because he walked back into your life.

i dont know much about life. or much about what to do about it. i only know a couple of things. and one of the things that i do know is what is in my heart. i know that there is no one that is to good for me. i know that i want to care about someone and have them return the favor. i know that one day being the " nice guy" will get me some where. i dont know where it will get me but i know that one day i'll be able to look at someone and tell them that i love them and they will say it back to me. i also know that not all girls are like this. i know that there are the ones that deserve the world. they deserve some one to love them more then they have never dreamed they could be loved like that. and that even though they are the perfect girl, the perfect friend and the perfect pretty much everything. i know that they will find someone who is worthy of them. because my friends, this girl. this perfect girl is what we all want in a wife. not because of her looks but because of her heart. is worth more then what we as men can dream of. she really is that amazing. :)

now i must say that guys arent perfect. or even close to that. i'll be the first to say. guys are stupid. we do things that dont make any sense. we do things that we know are stupid but do them anyways. so guys dont make it easy on the ladies to hate us. dont make it to where they have the excuse to not want anything to do with us. just remember to take it slowly. but at the same time hurry up and make your move, dont be afraid to tell her that she's pretty.and most importantly be a perfect gentleman. one day all of this will pay off. i dont know when it will. i dont know if it will for me. i just know that i will keep doing what i do best and keep making everyone happy. even thought it hurts more then any pain out there. i will keep doing what i do best. because that is who i am.