short and sweet.

Okso this is going to be really short. well i hope. so from what i can tell in life. with the experiences that i have had. i have realized that there is probably like about 30% of girls that are actually really cool and sweet. the other 70% have no idea what they want in life. they pass up great opportunities and people for something that is not even worth it. i some times wonder if its even worth the time for me to keep friendships and relationships. i cant take it anymore. I'm so frustrated. why cant the awesome, adorable, amazing guy ever get the girl. maybe your just not worth my time anymore. I'm done with you. besides i love food more then i like you. take that!!!



P.S. the views that are expressed in this blog do not involve the great girl friends that i have. for they are freaking amazing. they know who they are. if you have to ask then this is for you. :)

He-Man Woman Hater.

Ok im getting sick of this. Im getting sick of getting screwed over by so many people. and mainly girls. YES GIRLS!!!!! so far in my life i have been given the opportunity to have so many girls that i can call some of my best friends. but as of lately there have been few that i can put in that category. well more like one that is pretty much the best friend a guy can ask for. even thought some psycho girl thinks im a creeper. ( come on you dont even know me ughh) but what ever thats another story. so here is what i have come up with the experiences that i have encountered in the past couple of months. and ladies if im wrong please correct me. because so far the girls that i am getting my examples from arent helping your cause.

ok so one of the things that i have noticed is that no matter how nice a guy can be. like he can be the nicest guy that you have ever met. he will never be what you want to date. he's like a lamp. just there when you need him. you turn the lamp on just when you need the light that it gives. so therefore that guy is a lamp. you dont want to date him. you just in a way want to use him for one purpose. to make things easier for you. so he's a lamp. another is that you wont date the guy because your to heart broken to date. that you feel that you have no one in this world to make you happy. and when the perfect guy comes in the picture and he tells you that you are the most beautiful girl in the world and that he would give up everything that he owns just to have a chance at making you happy. just one chance to prove to you that true love exist. to show you that no matter what life throws at you he will be there to protect you from all the things that are wrong.

ok so what does a guy have to do to be happy. when did doing everything right and showing different people that you are willing to be what ever it is not good enough for them. when did being that " perfect guy" not what girls want. or is it that now a days girls like guys to treat them like crap. that girls always want a bad ass. or something like that. its a bunch of crap that no matter what the "good guy" does he will always be out shined but that stupid guy who doesnt care about you. who wont do what ever it takes to make you happy. even if its to leave a state just so that he can bring a smile to your face. just to see that beautiful smile on your face just because he walked back into your life.

i dont know much about life. or much about what to do about it. i only know a couple of things. and one of the things that i do know is what is in my heart. i know that there is no one that is to good for me. i know that i want to care about someone and have them return the favor. i know that one day being the " nice guy" will get me some where. i dont know where it will get me but i know that one day i'll be able to look at someone and tell them that i love them and they will say it back to me. i also know that not all girls are like this. i know that there are the ones that deserve the world. they deserve some one to love them more then they have never dreamed they could be loved like that. and that even though they are the perfect girl, the perfect friend and the perfect pretty much everything. i know that they will find someone who is worthy of them. because my friends, this girl. this perfect girl is what we all want in a wife. not because of her looks but because of her heart. is worth more then what we as men can dream of. she really is that amazing. :)

now i must say that guys arent perfect. or even close to that. i'll be the first to say. guys are stupid. we do things that dont make any sense. we do things that we know are stupid but do them anyways. so guys dont make it easy on the ladies to hate us. dont make it to where they have the excuse to not want anything to do with us. just remember to take it slowly. but at the same time hurry up and make your move, dont be afraid to tell her that she's pretty.and most importantly be a perfect gentleman. one day all of this will pay off. i dont know when it will. i dont know if it will for me. i just know that i will keep doing what i do best and keep making everyone happy. even thought it hurts more then any pain out there. i will keep doing what i do best. because that is who i am.

this isn't right

ok so i dont know if you can see this or not. or if you even keep up with this blog. but i heard something about you tonight and it got me thinking about you. i dont know if its a good thing or not but i did. things have been hard with out you in my life. i dont know what direction i should be going. and you were always good at telling me what to do. ughh i wish i could bring things back they way they used to be. its so hard trying to live a life when you know that you are missing something huge in it. and i dont know where to turn. i got so used to going to you for all my advice and now i dont know where to turn i remember times where i didnt know what to do and there you were to make things better. you always had so much faith in me. i always felt like i could concur the world with you be my side. and now...... well i just dont know. there hasnt been anyone. that has come to close to the way that you used to take care of me. i mean there are girls that have been in my life and that have done a wonderful job of making me happy. but.... i just miss the way that you looked at me. the way that you would talk to me and tell me that you loved me. i miss it all. and i try so hard to find someone that could fill those shoes. i know that there might be one. but i have to make her fall me like you fell for me. :) i hope life finds you well and happy.

Mr. Nice Guy

I have recently been labeled the nice guy. what does that even mean?? i have always tried my hardest to treat the people with the same respect that i would want to be treated. i have always tried to go out of my way to make the people a truly care just a little happier then i am. it wasn't until recently that i have discovered that being this so called nice guy is been more then a curse then a blessing. it really has only brought me heartache and stress. there are times where i want to be that jerk guy that gets everything that he wants. to be that guy where i insult girls and make them feel bad about themselves. just so that i can have that chance. but i don't have it in me. i don't have it in me to be that way towards anyone. i just don't know what to do anymore. all i want to do is care about someone more then they will ever know. i recently had what i would consider the best moment of my life. but i cant share it with anyone. you know one of those this will change my life forever moments. i wish i could share with the world what i had experienced for it was amazing and breathtaking. i don't know what I'm going to do. i don't know where life is going to take me. but i do know this. i know that if i do keep living the life that i live now that some day it will pay off. well i hope it does. i know that one day i will find true happiness. i know that i will be able to make that one person feel like they are the only person in the world that know what true happiness is. they will know what it is like to loved unconditionally

for the so called nice guys don't give up. be who you really are. the pay off is going to be far greater then what you would ever expect. i know that soon the world will realize that kindness is something that most of the world would want in a person. well i hope so

WOW

so much has happened since my last post and i dont even know where to start. its funny when you go through life and you think that you will be able to kinda predict whats next in your . but then your smacked down and kinda put in your place. i have had this recently happen to me. its happened in so many ways. with work, my personal life and so forth. but i have learned that some times you have to take the good with the bad. take this for example. there was a point in my life where i thought i had it all figured out. i thought i knew what i wanted and what i was going to do with myself. and then bam!!! it was all taken away. and i was stuck with pretty much nothing. and now i look back and i am glad that something like that had to happen to me. but then i still have those times where i want something so bad and i know i that i cant have it. for one example. there is something that i want right now. it is something that will pretty much make me the luckiest person in the world. but i cant have it. i cant have it for so many reasons. and its kind of a humbling experience to go through this. i never know how to handle it. take this imagine being some where and you find that one thing that will complete what your doing. you find that one thing that you know will make you happy forever. the one thing that when you look at it you cant help but to melt a little inside cause its so perfect. and at the same time most people see that it has flaws. it has little bumps and scratches on it. but to you its exactly what it needs to be that perfect item. the things that it has gone through over the years is what makes it perfect. i dont know. maybe its not time for me to have this one thing. but one thing that is for certain. who ever ends up with this will be one of the luckiest people in the world. i just hope that they know what they will have and cherish is forever.

another thing that has happened is that the world has lost a great entertainer. i remember when i was a kid and i would listen to michael jackson with my aunt. and i would watch his video's and they were like a mini movie. it was so amazing to watch him preform i will always remember the time when i would listen to his music and just the way that it made me feel. forget about what he did in his personal life. forget all the accusations against him. but remember how the man made you feel when you heard his music. everyone loved it. you couldn't help but to dance and just feel good. so in the words of my favorite singer of all time. this is for you ladies i hope this helps me to get the girl of my dreams.

Hey pretty baby with the
High heels on
You give me fever
Like Ive never, ever known
Youre just a product of
Loveliness
I like the groove of
Your walk,
Your talk, your dress
I feel your fever
From miles around
Ill pick you up in my car and well paint the town
Just kiss me baby
And tell me twice
That youre the one for me

The way you make me feel
(the way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(you really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
(you knock me off of
My feet)
My lonely days are gone
(my lonely days are gone)

I like the feelin youre
Givin me
Just hold me baby and im
In ecstasy
Oh Ill be workin from nine
To five
To buy you things to keep
You by my side
I never felt so in love before
Just promise baby, youll
Love me forevermore
I swear Im keepin you
Satisfied
cause youre the one for me
The way you make me feel
(the way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(you really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby-hee!
(you knock me off of
My feet)
My lonely days are gone-
A-acha-acha
(my lonely days are gone)
Acha-ooh!

Go on girl!
Go on! hee! hee! aaow!
Go on girl!

I never felt so in love before
Promise baby, youll love me
Forevermore
I swear Im keepin you
Satisfied
cause youre the one for
Me . . .

The way you make me feel
(the way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(you really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby-hee!
(you knock me off of
My feet)
My lonely days are gone
(my lonely days are gone)

The way you make me feel
(the way you make me feel)
You really turn me on
(you really turn me on)
You knock me off of my feet
Now baby-hee!
(you knock me off of
My feet)
My lonely days are gone
(my lonely days are gone)

Aint nobodys business,
Aint nobodys business
(the way you make me feel)
Aint nobodys business,
Aint nobodys business but
Mine and my baby
(you really turn me on)
Hee hee!
(you knock me off of
My feet)
Hee hee! ooh!
(my lonely days are gone)

Give it to me-give me
Some time
(the way you make me feel)
Come on be my girl-i wanna
Be with mine
(you really turn me on)
Aint nobodys business-
(you knock me off of
My feet)
Aint nobodys business but
Mine and my babys
Go on girl! aaow!
(my lonely days are gone)

Hee hee! aaow!
Chika-chika
Chika-chika-chika
Go on girl!-hee hee!
(the way you make me feel)
Hee hee hee!
(you really turn me on)
(you knock me off my feet)
(my lonely days are gone)

(the way you make me feel)
(you really turn me on)
(you knock me off my feet)
(my lonely days are gone)

thank you michael for showing the world what it is like to be a true entertainer. you sir will always be the king of pop.

hmmmm what am i thinking

ok so i thought of something today while i was eating at McDonald's. i said to myself. " why do i eat this crap?? i can make something that is ten times better then this" and then it hit me. i wonder if i can go the rest of the year without eating fast food. i wonder if i have enough self control to pass up Wendy's, whataburger, and sonic. i can do with out McDonald's for sure. but i wonder if i can do it. im not really doing it to lose weight. although it wouldn't hurt to lose more then i have already lost. while i was thinking this i also wondered if i can go with out drinking soda. it might be a little extreme but i think that i can do. i don't drink that much as it is. but to go completely with out it might be a little difficult but i think that i can do it. i know for sure that i cant go with out sweets. unlike some of my friends i just cant do it. but more props to them for doing it. and for those that have a problem with them trying to better themselves well i say shove it. go eat your cake and leave them alone.:) so i guess we'll see how this goes for me. so if you see me feel free to give me crap about it. it wont bother me. but don't temp me. that would suck. and i might give into temptation and then vomit all over you. that will be your punishment. so here i am. its June 17 and i am now officially giving up fast food till December 31. whoa what did i get myself into??

this is harder then i thought.

so lately things have been going great for me. i really have no reason to complain about how my life is going. well except for one thing. now i really open myself up here. i try and be honest with my feelings about what is going on with my life. i try really hard to show how i really am on here. but you know there has been i guess one strong focus of my blog and its really giving me the only way i know how to help me figure things out. ok so here it is. this is where im at with my life.

so i have asked for a lot of advice about how to date. what kind of things should a person look for. and really what i should do. i have done everything i know how to do. all of my so called game has been used. the little that i have really didn't get me anywhere. there were times where i thought i was going to get somewhere. where i thought that the patience that i had had finally paid off. but then here i am. alone. it really sucks cause i have a lot of people tell me that im a really good guy. that im this and that. and even the person that i am interested has told me the same thing. but im still left with this one question. what else do i have to do to show you that i want to give you the world. what else do i have to show you that all i want to do is make you happy for the rest of our lives. what more must i do to make this happen. i am all out of questions and answers. i have nothing left. i just have myself to give. i have gotten all the advice one can get. i have asked all the questions that i thought i should ask. i have made you laugh and smile everyday for as long as i can remember. i have tried my best to make your dreams come true. what else must i do. or is there anything i can do.

recently i have watched my brother start his family and watched the joy in his eyes as her started this. and i thought to myself how i wanted that to be me. how im ready for this. and how i almost had it. and how much it still pains me to this day that i couldn't make it happen. and how i don't know if its ever going to happen. ughh its just so frustrating. i don't know what else to do for you. i don't know if im even what you want. even though you have told me this. i just don't know anymore. all i know is what i feel for you. how i feel when you walk into a room and my heart just stops for that one second. how just the sound of your laugh just makes me melt inside. how no matter what kind of crap life throws at you you always tend to come out of it with a smile on your face. oh an i love how no matter how close we get as friends when ever we talk or i even see you i get so nervous. i don't even know why im so nervous i know i shouldn't be but its just the fact that i don't want to say or do anything wrong. i just want to be perfect for you. well im so far from it but i know you will accept me for who i am. i wish there was a way where i can see what your thinking. where i can just ask what more i have to do for you. ughh i dont even know why im even writing this. freak now everyone is going to know how big of a dork i am. well this sucks. i wish i had the courage to tell you this in person. but i don't. im afraid that if was to start talking you would walk away and just laugh and point at me. oh well this is the best thing that i could think of where i can tell my true feelings. i don't know. maybe i should just go on about life and not think twice about this. maybe its best if just focus on myself for awhile. maybe im just not what your looking for. man i wish i could be that person. oh well i guess life can only tell where this is going to go for us. i just hope it goes as planed.:)