now what???

so things lately have been really good. they have been so good that i feel like i don't deserve what i have in my life. i have recently received many great blessings that I'm not sure i should have gotten to come back in my life. friendships that i thought were gone and diffident things like that. if you know me then you would know that this has been the hardest year that i have ever faced. i don't really know how got here. how i got to this point in my life. i look back and what this year has meant that the different accomplishments and the failures that i have had. its hard to look at this year and say that it was a good one. but it was a very educational one. yeah educational. thats  a good word to describe it. but you know i wouldn't really trade what i have learned for anything. i have friendship that are stronger and relationships that have been through a lot but are still strong. if anything they have gotten stronger. know i don't really know what a head of me. but i look forward to what life has to throw at me. I'm ready bring it on.