ughhhhh

so i noticed that some times friends are hard to come by. this has happened recently in my life. i have had friends come and go and then i have some that have stayed and some times i don't even know why they are still there. but I'm glad that they are. and that sometimes its hard to have a friend that is just a friend and nothing more. that its a crime or something to have someone as your best friend and that its hard for people to understand this. that its ok that i can just be friends with this person and that there is nothing else there but an amazing friendship. and i love that more then anything. its so amazing to have a certain kinda friendship with someone where only you two are the only ones that understand whats going and that's ok. cause you know that you don't owe anything to anyone else. i have a couple of girls that i would consider my best friends and i love it. i love the close friendships that i have with some people. and some more then others. but for the most part I'm so grateful for the friendships that i have. i tend to forget that i need to be grateful for that. i sometimes i forget that. but im glad that i have an amazing friend who keeps reminding me that i have that. she tends to know more then i do. it sucks that that happens a lot. but that's what she here for. to know more then i do. and thats ok with me. thats why she is my best friend