On December 18 2010 we were married. It was an amazing day. We loved each other very much. That was the day that we started our family. We were living life as two married people do. Loving each other and doing our best to become better people. I remember talking to your mom and we were talking about when we wanted to start having little babies. We decided that we wanted to wait a little bit. We needed time to prepare for you and your brothers and sisters. We knew that the Lord had a plan for us. We knew that when the Lord was ready for us to have y'all he would let us know. And for us that was the way that we wanted it.
Months went by and married life was amazing. Your mommy and daddy grew more in love as each day passed. Then one day mommy was feeling sick. And after a couple of days of being sick we learned that we were going to have you. We took a little test. And BAM!!! You were coming. Mommy and daddy were so happy. We knew that the Lord had blessed us. We were both scared. But we were so excited that you were coming. We told our family and friends that you were coming to our family and they were all so happy. We were all happy. Mommy and daddy thought of names for you. We thought of how were going to raise you. How we would help you grow to become an amazing person. But most importantly we knew that we were going to love you more then any other baby would be loved.
Mommy started to feel sick one day. We thought that it would be something that would pass. But it wasn't. We took mommy to the hospital. At the hospital we found out that the Lord needed you to come home. We learned that now wasn't the time for you to come to us. The Lord needed you to help others come first. He needed you there cause you were to perfect to come here right now. Mommy and daddy were so sad. We cried a lot. We cried cause we knew that you were needed with our Heavenly father before you were needed down here. But don't worry we're not sad cause we will never see you again. We know that there will be a time when we will be ready for you. When Heavenly father will not need you anymore to help him. So we'll make a promise to you. Stay there and do what the Lord needs you to do. Help him with whatever he needs. And mommy and daddy will do that same down here. We will do our best to prepare for you. We will do our best to make others lives better. Because we know that one day the Lord will bless us once again. We know that he has a plan for us. And that this is something that we need to go through before we can bring here. Until then remember that we love you. We'll be waiting for you.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Guess what??
So much is happening in our lives right now. But the biggest thing is that WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!!
Now if you know me then you would know that i love my nieces and nephews soooo much. I have loved watching each of them grow up. And since I got married they have only doubled. And so has my love for them. Each one of them holds a piece of my heart in a very special way. From the oldes to the youngest they all know that their uncle Jason loves each one of them. And for years now i have done everything in my power to show them that. I have always tried to be someone that they could come to for anything. I guess in a way i have been in training for the one thing that i know i was put on this earth to do. I know that with all of my heart that the one thing that i know that i was born to be is a father. All of my life i have held a special place in my heart for this moment. And now that it is here i can't help but to smile. This is something that Malinda and I have been waiting for. We didn't plan on this at all. But we know that the lord had a HUGE hand in this. He has blessed us with the opportunity to be parents. Are we scared? Yes of course. But its ok. Are we ready? No. But its ok. Its ok because we know that the lord knows that we're ready. ITs ok because we have family who supports us. And thats what we need the most right now. We need to know that we have family there to simply love our first child. Thats all. We'll figure out the rest. We will learn how to be parents. A baby is a blessing. Its a huge blessing for us. I know that when i married Malinda I knew that I was going to be marrying the mother of my children. She is smart, cautious, loving, and most of all ready to be a mother. What we need right now is just love and support.We know that we have friends who love us as well and are excited for us. I cant think of better friends to have the ones i have now. Thats why i have you there. We cant wait till we can show pictures of baby. We cant wait to be parents. And most of all we cant wait for our child to meet our wonderful family and friends
For my LDS family and friends. We know that there is a step that we need to take. We know that we need to be sealed as a family. But we would like to wait. It is a choice that we have made. It was a choice that does not involve our family or friends.
Now if you know me then you would know that i love my nieces and nephews soooo much. I have loved watching each of them grow up. And since I got married they have only doubled. And so has my love for them. Each one of them holds a piece of my heart in a very special way. From the oldes to the youngest they all know that their uncle Jason loves each one of them. And for years now i have done everything in my power to show them that. I have always tried to be someone that they could come to for anything. I guess in a way i have been in training for the one thing that i know i was put on this earth to do. I know that with all of my heart that the one thing that i know that i was born to be is a father. All of my life i have held a special place in my heart for this moment. And now that it is here i can't help but to smile. This is something that Malinda and I have been waiting for. We didn't plan on this at all. But we know that the lord had a HUGE hand in this. He has blessed us with the opportunity to be parents. Are we scared? Yes of course. But its ok. Are we ready? No. But its ok. Its ok because we know that the lord knows that we're ready. ITs ok because we have family who supports us. And thats what we need the most right now. We need to know that we have family there to simply love our first child. Thats all. We'll figure out the rest. We will learn how to be parents. A baby is a blessing. Its a huge blessing for us. I know that when i married Malinda I knew that I was going to be marrying the mother of my children. She is smart, cautious, loving, and most of all ready to be a mother. What we need right now is just love and support.We know that we have friends who love us as well and are excited for us. I cant think of better friends to have the ones i have now. Thats why i have you there. We cant wait till we can show pictures of baby. We cant wait to be parents. And most of all we cant wait for our child to meet our wonderful family and friends
For my LDS family and friends. We know that there is a step that we need to take. We know that we need to be sealed as a family. But we would like to wait. It is a choice that we have made. It was a choice that does not involve our family or friends.
Monday, January 31, 2011
World I couldn't leave you.
So i have realized that I'm not done writing to the world. I don't know if its one of those things where i think i need to let my thoughts out or i just miss y'all. I think its a little of both. I have so much that i want to tell y'all. I feel like i have lost one of my dearest friends. So here i go. I'll start from the beginning.
So as of December 18, 2010 i became a married man. And to tell you the truth that was the best day of my life. Since then i feel like things have been amazing. I never knew that getting married to your best friend would have such an impact on your life. Just the other day i was talking to a dear friend of mine and i told her that i don't know why we took so long to get married. I mean really not much has changed since being married. Other then the obvious. We live together, we're together day and night, and there are perks. But other then that we are the same. Also i think that our relationship has grown into something that is so honest and loving. We of course have a disagreements like any other couple. But we work through them. We take the advice that we were given to heart. And I think that the most important one that we have taken is that we should never go to sleep mad at each other. Well maybe two. My sister--in-laws mother-in-law gave us good advice as well. "When one person ask to go with them somewhere go, it doesn't matter where just go. Cause if you don't there will be a day when they will stop asking". And i think that after 56 years marriage she might know a little about it. But those two things we have really taken to heart.
During out first month of marriage i have learned a lot about myself. About the way i act when my wife is around ( thats so awesome i have a wife) versus when she is not around. I learned it the hard way last Saturday. One of our dear family friends got married. There were going to be a lot of people that i haven't seen in months. And i know that they were going to ask where Malinda was. Malinda attended her sisters baby shower in Dallas and wasn't able to attend the wedding. I felt so lonely without her there. And as i walked around i the reception area i found myself lost and confused. I felt like i was old and had lost my way. I later realized that it was Malinda who was the person who told me where to go and where to sit. I missed her dearly.
A lot has happened in my life this past year. Along with getting married last year i grew more to who i am now on a spiritual level as well. Now I'm not the most religious person in the world. But i do know a couple of things. I love my religion. I know that what i was taught growing up are lessons that i will never forget. They are in my heart now and one day i will teach my children the same principles that i was taught. Coming to that conclusion was hard. It was the hardest thing that i think i ever had to do. I thought that asking the girl of my dream to marry me was going to be hard. But i found out that it was probably the easiest thing I'll ever do. I tested my spiritually. I tested my beliefs. I tested my faith in people. I tried so hard to find reasons to leave my church. I tried everything that i could think of but it never happened. It didn't happened cause there was a friend on the east coast who wouldn't let that happen. As i did what i could to leave the church every week I received an email from a friends mom about her mission. It was the only contact i had with the church. And from hundreds of miles a way it was my friend who saved me. It was like every week she had something to tell me. Every week she had a lesson for me to learn. Or a memory that i had of a moment that she was having. It was like there was nothing that i could do or say to stop my friend from talking to me. I saw her this past weekend and it took everything i had not to cry when i saw her. It was one of those moments when you meet your role model in person and you don't know what to say. I didn't have Malinda there with me so it made it harder. I didn't have her to tell me that I'm going to be ok. I hugged my friend and it was like i knew that from that day forward my faith will never waiver. Michelle Ferry thank you. Our lives will forever be changed because of what you taught me.
In life you will face many things that will force you to change your plans. There will be times when plans have to change. And that's ok. Its ok to change what you want for your life. Its ok to chase a dream that you think is impossible. Nothing in life is set in stone until it happens. I had a great year, I have had to face things that i didn't want to face. But one thing that i learned that i was never alone through it all. I had my wife, my family and my friends to carry me through it all. I love my life. I love my friends. I love family. I love not knowing where tomorrow is going to take us. Cause in the end I'm not alone. I have you.
So as of December 18, 2010 i became a married man. And to tell you the truth that was the best day of my life. Since then i feel like things have been amazing. I never knew that getting married to your best friend would have such an impact on your life. Just the other day i was talking to a dear friend of mine and i told her that i don't know why we took so long to get married. I mean really not much has changed since being married. Other then the obvious. We live together, we're together day and night, and there are perks. But other then that we are the same. Also i think that our relationship has grown into something that is so honest and loving. We of course have a disagreements like any other couple. But we work through them. We take the advice that we were given to heart. And I think that the most important one that we have taken is that we should never go to sleep mad at each other. Well maybe two. My sister--in-laws mother-in-law gave us good advice as well. "When one person ask to go with them somewhere go, it doesn't matter where just go. Cause if you don't there will be a day when they will stop asking". And i think that after 56 years marriage she might know a little about it. But those two things we have really taken to heart.
During out first month of marriage i have learned a lot about myself. About the way i act when my wife is around ( thats so awesome i have a wife) versus when she is not around. I learned it the hard way last Saturday. One of our dear family friends got married. There were going to be a lot of people that i haven't seen in months. And i know that they were going to ask where Malinda was. Malinda attended her sisters baby shower in Dallas and wasn't able to attend the wedding. I felt so lonely without her there. And as i walked around i the reception area i found myself lost and confused. I felt like i was old and had lost my way. I later realized that it was Malinda who was the person who told me where to go and where to sit. I missed her dearly.
A lot has happened in my life this past year. Along with getting married last year i grew more to who i am now on a spiritual level as well. Now I'm not the most religious person in the world. But i do know a couple of things. I love my religion. I know that what i was taught growing up are lessons that i will never forget. They are in my heart now and one day i will teach my children the same principles that i was taught. Coming to that conclusion was hard. It was the hardest thing that i think i ever had to do. I thought that asking the girl of my dream to marry me was going to be hard. But i found out that it was probably the easiest thing I'll ever do. I tested my spiritually. I tested my beliefs. I tested my faith in people. I tried so hard to find reasons to leave my church. I tried everything that i could think of but it never happened. It didn't happened cause there was a friend on the east coast who wouldn't let that happen. As i did what i could to leave the church every week I received an email from a friends mom about her mission. It was the only contact i had with the church. And from hundreds of miles a way it was my friend who saved me. It was like every week she had something to tell me. Every week she had a lesson for me to learn. Or a memory that i had of a moment that she was having. It was like there was nothing that i could do or say to stop my friend from talking to me. I saw her this past weekend and it took everything i had not to cry when i saw her. It was one of those moments when you meet your role model in person and you don't know what to say. I didn't have Malinda there with me so it made it harder. I didn't have her to tell me that I'm going to be ok. I hugged my friend and it was like i knew that from that day forward my faith will never waiver. Michelle Ferry thank you. Our lives will forever be changed because of what you taught me.
In life you will face many things that will force you to change your plans. There will be times when plans have to change. And that's ok. Its ok to change what you want for your life. Its ok to chase a dream that you think is impossible. Nothing in life is set in stone until it happens. I had a great year, I have had to face things that i didn't want to face. But one thing that i learned that i was never alone through it all. I had my wife, my family and my friends to carry me through it all. I love my life. I love my friends. I love family. I love not knowing where tomorrow is going to take us. Cause in the end I'm not alone. I have you.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Where has the time gone
Its been a little over three months since the last time i posted anything. I don't even know where to start. I guess the first thing that i can say is that I am blessed to be where I am today. On December 18 2010 I married my best friend. We got married at her parents house. It was gorgeous. A little cold but perfect. I don't know if you have ever had those moments in your life where you feel like that on that day nothing was going to go wrong. That is what i felt the whole day. I remember leaving my brothers house with one of my closest friends in the world. And driving from Brenham, Tx to La Grange, Tx. For most of the drive we just talked. And it wasn't one of those drives where you just sit back and relax and let the other person drive. I was so nervous. She talked most of the way. It calmed me down and just made my day that much better. When we arrived in La Grange i got a call from Malinda informing me that she was alone at the hair stylist. And that she really needed someone there with her. The only thing i could think of was to send my best friend. Malinda later told me that it was very helpful having her there. And later on that night when I saw the love of my life walking towards me I know that at that moment in my life there was no other person I would have wanted standing next to me as my best man. So thank you Kurstin. With everything that I have gone through in my life you have always been there to make me laugh, smile, feel loved and so many other things. You are and will forever be one of my best friends.
Now Kurstin wasn't the only person who made our day perfect. Now allow me to paint you a little picture. Malinda is the youngest girl of 9. She has one younger brother. So for the family to have the youngest girl get married there was a lot of things going on. Malinda has always felt that she was picked on by her older siblings. And she was worried that she wouldn't have the wedding that she had always dreamed of. And on her wedding day her family showed there true colors. Malinda is a very lucky girl. When I arrived at the venue where the reception was to take place. I walked into a room that surpassed everything that we had wanted. Her sisters had taken what we wanted and just made it perfect. Her sister Kim and brother in law Robert had worked for hours to make it perfect for us. Her sister Sara made a beautiful wedding cake. It was just perfect. Everything was just perfect.
Ok so now I'm married. Now what? Now what do we do? We have made it to a place that most didn't think we would make it to. Malinda is now my wife and I am her husband. We live a honest life. We're happy and in love. Nothing can change that. If you have been one of my readers for as long as i have been blogging then you know that i have had my ups and downs. I have been in love before. I have had people taken out of my life for reasons I could have helped. I have seen the world change right in front of me. You have seen my world change in front of you. I have this blog so that i can talk to the world. So that i can talk to you. I don't know if I will continue this blog. Seeing that most of this blog (my letter to the world) is full of heartache and trials that I have been through. I have always said that my life is like a Blue October album. I have cried in front of you. Laughed with you. And made my peace with you. So to the world I leave you with this. Dream your favorite dream. Laugh like its the last time that you will ever see your friend again. And live for the next smile the next whatever you want it to be. Just remember that no matter what happens in life there is always another tomorrow. Thank you for being there for me. I will never forget everything that the world has given me. I will now close this chapter of my life. And start a new one with my wife. Now go and find happiness like i have. You deserve it. We all do.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Dear Stranger
I never had the chance to meet Rod Dial. I never was one of the thousands that his life touched while he was alive. I never had the opportunity to go and play sports with him, or sit in his presence. But this man has changed my life in a way that its never been changed. And for that I am grateful to know his friends. I don't know if his family or friends will ever see this but i want to tell you my friends about a man that is greater then most on this earth and is now where he is needed the most at this time. His life is one that will always be remembered.
Growing up I didn't have the best role model. My father wasn't one of those men who taught me about life. I guess in a way I became a man on my own. I learned the lessons the hard way. The way that I guess makes you stronger. In a way I'm glad that i was raised that way. It helped me see what I wanted for my family. It helped me become the man that I want to be. I have gone through many hardships in my life. But i have also been blessed beyond my dreams. They say that behind every great man is a great woman. Now i have found that great woman. I just need to become that great man. For years I have searched to find out what the true meaning of life is. I have lost friends and gained friends. I have loved and lost and then found true love. I have searched many churches just to go back to the one that I believe in. But there was still this void that I was trying to fill. There was still something missing in my life. I couldn't find it any where. I have spent many sleepless nights thinking about how I can better myself. I have thought about doing various things But it wasn't till I saw something that caught my eye. I was on facebook and I started to read what my friends where posting about this man. The way they talked about him made me think "who is this guy". I know one of his daughters. And she really is a great person. I have seen pictures of her and her dad in many places. But that is all I really knew about him. But the way that they spoke of him was in a way that made you pause and think about life. The news said that his friends spoke about him as if he was "holy". Now to me that might have been a little too much. Until i started to read his facebook page.
Rod Dial is man that lived life like there was no tomorrow. Many people have become better because of this man. One thing that i noticed is that he always smiled and would give huge hugs. He made people feel like they were worth something. As a young man he lost his father and would help the young men who didn't have fathers become that man that he had become. He was a person who truly cared about you. He served his church and his community as if they were family. He helped others, nurtured those who were in need of a pick me up. He taught the value of life to so many. Many say that he was the person they wanted to be. He was the example that you wanted for your kids. His children where the ones that you wanted your kids to be friends with. I know personally that just be knowing one of them I can see the example in her that she learned from her father. His love and his compassion was contagious.
After hearing so many wonderful things about Rod. I knew that it would be wrong not mention my feelings to man that I never had the honor to know. But because of his untimely death I know how want to live my life. I know that I can no longer take my family and friends for granted. I can no longer turn my head when someone is in need of a shoulder or hand shake. I know now that there are things that I want to change about my life, things that only a man like Rod Dial can teach. I hope that when it is my time to return to my heavenly father that my friends and family will talk about me like they do about Rod. I hope that one day my life will be able to touch half as many people as Rod Dial's did. So thank you Rod Dial. For the example that you have set for those that had the honor of knowing you and to those who didn't have that honor. One day I wish to be just like Rod Dial.
Growing up I didn't have the best role model. My father wasn't one of those men who taught me about life. I guess in a way I became a man on my own. I learned the lessons the hard way. The way that I guess makes you stronger. In a way I'm glad that i was raised that way. It helped me see what I wanted for my family. It helped me become the man that I want to be. I have gone through many hardships in my life. But i have also been blessed beyond my dreams. They say that behind every great man is a great woman. Now i have found that great woman. I just need to become that great man. For years I have searched to find out what the true meaning of life is. I have lost friends and gained friends. I have loved and lost and then found true love. I have searched many churches just to go back to the one that I believe in. But there was still this void that I was trying to fill. There was still something missing in my life. I couldn't find it any where. I have spent many sleepless nights thinking about how I can better myself. I have thought about doing various things But it wasn't till I saw something that caught my eye. I was on facebook and I started to read what my friends where posting about this man. The way they talked about him made me think "who is this guy". I know one of his daughters. And she really is a great person. I have seen pictures of her and her dad in many places. But that is all I really knew about him. But the way that they spoke of him was in a way that made you pause and think about life. The news said that his friends spoke about him as if he was "holy". Now to me that might have been a little too much. Until i started to read his facebook page.
Rod Dial is man that lived life like there was no tomorrow. Many people have become better because of this man. One thing that i noticed is that he always smiled and would give huge hugs. He made people feel like they were worth something. As a young man he lost his father and would help the young men who didn't have fathers become that man that he had become. He was a person who truly cared about you. He served his church and his community as if they were family. He helped others, nurtured those who were in need of a pick me up. He taught the value of life to so many. Many say that he was the person they wanted to be. He was the example that you wanted for your kids. His children where the ones that you wanted your kids to be friends with. I know personally that just be knowing one of them I can see the example in her that she learned from her father. His love and his compassion was contagious.
After hearing so many wonderful things about Rod. I knew that it would be wrong not mention my feelings to man that I never had the honor to know. But because of his untimely death I know how want to live my life. I know that I can no longer take my family and friends for granted. I can no longer turn my head when someone is in need of a shoulder or hand shake. I know now that there are things that I want to change about my life, things that only a man like Rod Dial can teach. I hope that when it is my time to return to my heavenly father that my friends and family will talk about me like they do about Rod. I hope that one day my life will be able to touch half as many people as Rod Dial's did. So thank you Rod Dial. For the example that you have set for those that had the honor of knowing you and to those who didn't have that honor. One day I wish to be just like Rod Dial.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Well.......
Well i don't really know where to start. I feel like have been neglecting my blog. Seeing that my last post was in May. So much has happened in my life that i just need to let the world know. After asking the girl of my dreams to marry me I thought that it was going to be a smooth ride till the wedding. Seeing that i was in love and things were going really for me i couldn't think of anything that can ruin my high. But I guess you cant always have your cake and eat it too.I'm having a hard time with my future in-laws. Well just father-in-law. Its as if we cant do anything right in his eyes. We try so hard to make Our plans work for us. I think its something that he is having trouble with it. I can tell that he is someone that has to have control of every situation. I'm sorry but its not that easy with me. If you have known me for awhile then you would know that i have had "daddy" issues. Growing up i didn't have the best father. I was abused physically and emotionally. And i think that the emotional abuse is what hurt the most. I was always told that i wouldn't amount to anything and that i was pretty much useless. I had to help raise my younger siblings when i was 18. I don't know about you but being a father figure to a bunch of kids at 18 is not the best thing for a kid. But i did what i had to. I became the man that they needed me be. For years i put myself last and them first. I did my best. So now that i am older there are things that i just don't put up with. And having a controlling person try and run my life isn't going to fly. Malinda tells me to just forget about it and that's just the way he is. But i cant do it. there have been times where i just wanted to give up because of what he has done to her. But i cant. I'm in love with an amazing girl. Some members of her family don't see me for who i am.I don't know how they see me. Maybe its because I'm not successful enough for them. But I'm sorry i don't have a daddy to turn for everything that i have. But for the most part i love my new family. The change for me is going to be hard. I guess all i can do is put a fake smile on my face and do what makes Malinda happy.
On another note. I was in the hospital last week. It was hard to be there. To just lie in that bed and not be able to do anything. I was given some news that would change my life forever. The way that i cook the way i eat the way i live my life. I don't know if anyone can relate or not. But i have never had a moment in my life when i just sat there and watch my life change in minutes. I didn't know what to do or to say. I looked at Malinda and thought to myself how is she going to want to be with me when I'm down and out. I'm her rock I'm everything and now I'm stuck to this bed. So many things were going on in my head. Not to sound over dramatic or anything but that is what i was thinking. I'm better now. Malinda still loves me. everything is ok now. One thing that really change my out look on things was one nurse. Now i have never really thought much of nurses. I know that they play an important role in the hospital. They are very smart and most of them know a lot about what they are doing. But this time i saw a nurse who did more then just poke me. She came in about 6 in the morning. She was getting my meds ready for me and asked how i was doing. She started to tell me about what was going on with me. She let me know things that i can do to fix my life. I didn't for a moment think that she actually cared about me or my life. For me the best thing someone can do is just to make me laugh and not think about what was going on at that moment. For 2 days i had the best nurse in Austin. She was everything that i could have ever asked in a nurse. I now have a bigger respect for nurses. They aren't just there to poke you or to ask if you have pooped.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
wow its been way to long
i cant believe its been 2 months since my last entry. there is so much i want to talk about. so many things have happened in my life and i don't know where to start. well first of all. i just want to say how much i love Malinda. she is the rock in my life. i have loved many girls before. but she is the first one to show my what true love is. i don't know how many times i need to tell her to show her how much i truly love her. when we first met her i had friends tell me that it was a bad idea to date her. but you know what. she made me happy and that was all that mattered to me. i have lost some of those friends because of it. and you know what i am happier for it. i am happier that i have found the love of my life. i cant wait to spend the rest of my life with Malinda.
one thing that does make it hard for me is the family. now my friends (the world, I'm saying this because i need to get this off of my chest. i need to vent. and if you have read my blog before then you know that this is where i go and vent. i talk to the world like you are my friends. this is where i am home. if you have something nice to say or advice then i will welcome it). OK back to my story. for most of my life my dad has always put me down. I'm not trying to sit here and cry about it. its not me. but you know i thought that when i got married i could spend time with my father in law. i was so excited for it. i thought to myself i might have someone that i can go to when i need advice for my family. sadly i wont be able to do that. no matter what i do, i try and talk to him but its like i don't exists to him. and he has tried almost everything to break us up. i don't know what to do. i cant lay there and take it like the other guys do. if you know me then you know that i don't back down from anyone. but i just wish there was something that i could to make him see me for me and that all i want to do is make Malinda happy. so any advice would be helpful.
so i have also had this great idea. if you have been reading my statuses on facebook then you know what i am talking about. something that has caught my attention here in Austin are the mass amounts of trailers that i have taken over the city. i look around and its like they are everywhere. and for the most part they really aren't anything special. i mean there have been tacos truck going around construction sites for years. that's nothing new. now there are better ones to try now. you can find everything from tacos to pizza to some thing in a cone. ( ok you were the executive chef at hudson on the bend and your best idea was to sell food out of a cone. yeah now i see why you were fired.) most of what you find is VERY unhealthy. well have no fear Austin i am coming. i present to my city. "The Pasta Trailer". we will have healthy items to eat. things that you wont feel bad to eat. pasta that you love. pasta that you grew up eating. the ones that make you scream for more. we cant wait to open. we cant wait to show our great city that there is something healthy out there to eat that tastes great. oh man im so excited.
ok so now that i have vented and i have told some happy news and what not. there is something that i want to talk about. now if you didn't know. i am a very emotional person. i mean i show how i feel on my shoulder. its funny my life can be told through blue octobers music. its really weird cause most of the music is written by a bi-polar genius. i have ups and downs. all the time. i feel depressed, sad, moody. i cant explain it. its really hard. i feel bad for Malinda sometimes cause she doesn't know what to do or what to tell me. i feel like a little kid. i see myself doing this and i cant do anything about it. i think i need to talk about this more often on here. this is my home. this is where i am myself. i love talking to the world. i have no idea who reads this. i don't know if i know you. or your one of my closes friends. i try everyday to be happy. i put on a smile and go. i do what i do for Malinda. i try so hard for her. but sometimes i feel like its not enough. i put her through so much. and it hurts too. i see what she goes through with her dad. with everything that i have seen that he puts her through i can see why she would want to give up. but she doesn't. she stands up for what she believes in. she follows her dreams. ( now if you have read this before then you know that i am a huge believer in doing what you love and loving what you do). to see her look at what is she is capable of doing and to watch the creative side of her just shine. just makes me so happy. i love every minute of it. if you don't love what you do in life then why do it. i don't understand how people can do something that they hate everyday. it makes no sense to me.
well its late. and i feel like i have taken up to much of your time. oh one more thing. even though i don't really have a father figure to show me the ropes to becoming a husband and later being a father. i have one great mom. she is the one who shows me how to love. and how to be loved. i also have randall wright. that is a man that i admire more then any man that i know. even though i am not one of his kids he treats me like his own. and has loved me like a son. and for that i am forever great ful. so world chase your dreams. dont let anyone get in your way of following your dreams. become that person that you want to be. become you.
one thing that does make it hard for me is the family. now my friends (the world, I'm saying this because i need to get this off of my chest. i need to vent. and if you have read my blog before then you know that this is where i go and vent. i talk to the world like you are my friends. this is where i am home. if you have something nice to say or advice then i will welcome it). OK back to my story. for most of my life my dad has always put me down. I'm not trying to sit here and cry about it. its not me. but you know i thought that when i got married i could spend time with my father in law. i was so excited for it. i thought to myself i might have someone that i can go to when i need advice for my family. sadly i wont be able to do that. no matter what i do, i try and talk to him but its like i don't exists to him. and he has tried almost everything to break us up. i don't know what to do. i cant lay there and take it like the other guys do. if you know me then you know that i don't back down from anyone. but i just wish there was something that i could to make him see me for me and that all i want to do is make Malinda happy. so any advice would be helpful.
so i have also had this great idea. if you have been reading my statuses on facebook then you know what i am talking about. something that has caught my attention here in Austin are the mass amounts of trailers that i have taken over the city. i look around and its like they are everywhere. and for the most part they really aren't anything special. i mean there have been tacos truck going around construction sites for years. that's nothing new. now there are better ones to try now. you can find everything from tacos to pizza to some thing in a cone. ( ok you were the executive chef at hudson on the bend and your best idea was to sell food out of a cone. yeah now i see why you were fired.) most of what you find is VERY unhealthy. well have no fear Austin i am coming. i present to my city. "The Pasta Trailer". we will have healthy items to eat. things that you wont feel bad to eat. pasta that you love. pasta that you grew up eating. the ones that make you scream for more. we cant wait to open. we cant wait to show our great city that there is something healthy out there to eat that tastes great. oh man im so excited.
ok so now that i have vented and i have told some happy news and what not. there is something that i want to talk about. now if you didn't know. i am a very emotional person. i mean i show how i feel on my shoulder. its funny my life can be told through blue octobers music. its really weird cause most of the music is written by a bi-polar genius. i have ups and downs. all the time. i feel depressed, sad, moody. i cant explain it. its really hard. i feel bad for Malinda sometimes cause she doesn't know what to do or what to tell me. i feel like a little kid. i see myself doing this and i cant do anything about it. i think i need to talk about this more often on here. this is my home. this is where i am myself. i love talking to the world. i have no idea who reads this. i don't know if i know you. or your one of my closes friends. i try everyday to be happy. i put on a smile and go. i do what i do for Malinda. i try so hard for her. but sometimes i feel like its not enough. i put her through so much. and it hurts too. i see what she goes through with her dad. with everything that i have seen that he puts her through i can see why she would want to give up. but she doesn't. she stands up for what she believes in. she follows her dreams. ( now if you have read this before then you know that i am a huge believer in doing what you love and loving what you do). to see her look at what is she is capable of doing and to watch the creative side of her just shine. just makes me so happy. i love every minute of it. if you don't love what you do in life then why do it. i don't understand how people can do something that they hate everyday. it makes no sense to me.
well its late. and i feel like i have taken up to much of your time. oh one more thing. even though i don't really have a father figure to show me the ropes to becoming a husband and later being a father. i have one great mom. she is the one who shows me how to love. and how to be loved. i also have randall wright. that is a man that i admire more then any man that i know. even though i am not one of his kids he treats me like his own. and has loved me like a son. and for that i am forever great ful. so world chase your dreams. dont let anyone get in your way of following your dreams. become that person that you want to be. become you.
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